Do you all sometimes wish you had it all? A bigger home; more time; more money; more clothing; a better body; a car; go on more vacations? Recently I have been finding myself wishing for things that I know I cannot have right now due to other factors that I cannot control. And I think my wishful thinking (or complaints, as my hubby calls it) might be bugging others.
I might at times complain to a friend about buying a bigger house, not realizing that my friend who still lives with parents would want to have what I have. Other times, I might say I wish I had a permanent job instead of these contract jobs, but not realize that some of my friends don't even have jobs, or the fact that I should be happy that I have a job that pays the bills. However, we all complain about money and wish we all had more, so I guess that is something we cannot control :)
I guess in this society of “I want that”, we are all used to getting what we want. And it is all possible (for the most part). However we don't always realize the costs that are associated with that want. I want a bigger house with a bigger kitchen than the tiny space I have now. However, a bigger house will mean a bigger mortgage for us. And with my unsteady contract jobs, I cannot afford to lock myself into a risky situation. I can get a permanent job, but that would mean either moving away from our town or accepting a permanent position in a field I did not go to school for. These small costs that could change your future.
Before I began blogging, I have been reading many blogs. And while reading many of the “decor” type of blogs, I began wanting a bigger home, more money to decorate, more renovation projects to do, etc. Only after my husband started questioning my “unhappiness” and after a few months of reading these blogs have I realized the jealousy monster that was growing inside me. Instead of using their blogs as inspiration for my current home and what I have now, I began being jealous at the stuff they have and not being happy with all that we have.
It wasn’t until I got laid off this past year that I began to see just how much we have – having a house with no mortgage, a year old car totally paid off, no financial hardships to worry about, and a loving support system from both family and friends. These are the things that many people wish to have; however I have not seen what I have as being something others would want.
I have now learned from my mistakes this past year, and have learned to love everything I have! Yes, it’s not quite what I had planned my life to be at this stage in my life. But hey, these are the things that I cannot control and just need to learn to embrace all that is given to me! Yes, I still would like to have all those things, but with time! :) Right now, I am enjoying everything I do have and all that He has provided for me. This is where the verse from Ecclesiastes 3:1 comes to mind.